Posted by ghost on August 6, 2004, at 8:25:53
In reply to Re: journal excerpt **possible trigger**, posted by JenStar on August 6, 2004, at 0:48:25
> I like the 'box idea.' What are some of the things in your box?
you know, it's funny. there's no one thing that makes me depressed. i just hate life in general. i hate me. i don't even know why. i'll have to think about what i'm going to put in the box.
> By the way, I agree with you! Life IS short. On the optimistic side, I'd have to add "so make the most of it!" if that doesn't sound too dorky/corny/annoying/Hallmark-cardy/kick-me-in-the-butt-for-being-so-saccarine. But that's what I try to tell myself, even if I feel phony, every time I'm feeling dismal and low.
i wish this worked for me... usually once i'm low, i can't possibly see light, it's all dark.
> I don't know about you, but for some reason when I get in a "low" mood it's almost like I ENJOY being low (does that make sense) and I get mad at any suggestion of ways to feel happier. So I try to bounce myself out of it with little corny saying...and sometimes it works. :)
i'm like this when manic-- i mean, who wouldnt want to think they're the greatest? but when i'm like this... i'd trade it for mania any day.
> what rant radio piece were you listening to? They ARE awful sometimes. Also funny. People on the radio get so worked up about stuff that seems so silly or insignificant!
i was listening to rant radio's industrial station. the first line from my journal was a song lyric.
> About love...I don't know if it's overrated everywhere, but on TV and in the movies, definitely! I think love is overplayed on TV - so is friendship. It's enough to make anyone feel bad sometimes when we watch those sitcoms -people with perfect lives and perfect bodies and perfect lovers, resolving problems perfectly in sanitized little 1/2 hour blocks. Gag! Society floats all these ideas of perfection around, and sometimes it's hard to break away and say, "geez, life just isn't going to be as perfect as they make it look!"
i do agree. but it's even worse in real life when you meet people who are so deliriously happy with each other... even after years of being together. even through bad times. it just makes me think i'm unlovable.
> I don't know. I'm rambling, I guess, up late too. But I wanted to connect with you and let you know that someone out there, in the dark night, is thinking of you kindly and wants you to be well.
thank you... i really appreciate everyone's help.
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