Posted by ghost on August 6, 2004, at 8:31:20
In reply to Re: journal excerpt **possible trigger** » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on August 6, 2004, at 7:17:51
journalling helps me too, mostly late at night (when depression really smacks me, after a long day). i can't sleep until i get all my thoughts out of my head so i stop thinking about them. mostly on the premiss that i'll look at them tomorrow and try to deal with them then. (i usually don't but i convince myself otherwise so i can sleep.)
i miss the days when i used to sleep all the time-- at least when i'm asleep i don't have to feel bad all the time.
lately i don't have a hell of a lot to put in my journal. or i write the same thing 50 times. it's the same thoughts and feelings: i hate myself, i want to die. blah blah blah. and it makes me so angry because i'm at this point in my life when i should be so happy-- i have a new job that pays well, i'm thinking of buying a house (uh... *there* is a stress trigger if there ever was one), i'm starting over again. but the stress is just overwhelming i think. plus what i was dealing with already.
"crippling" is a really good word to describe depression. that's it, exactly.
anyhow. thanks for the kind words.. you have no idea how much i appreciate them.
ghost
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