Posted by Daydreamer on February 8, 2004, at 21:46:31
In reply to Re: just can't hold on, posted by pegasus on February 7, 2004, at 16:59:43
Lepus,
Exhaustion...
Anger..
Loneliness.To be so exhausted and so tired of being in your head. Its a da*n vicious cycle.
Everyday you go to bed thinking--"maybe tomorrows it... maybe tomorrow will be the day things will change" and it never does.
Or maybe things do get "better"- but then you got back to that spot-- to that frame of mind.. where you are so mentally and emotionally exhausted- its just doesnt seem fair to live anymore. You think my life is just another fly on the wall.....
Its just going to keep happenining again, and again, and again.You know.. it will. For who knows how long.
But can you imagine the technology that keep coming up with ??? Someday we will have the medicine thatll cure it all for good.Can you imagine when your old and feeble and lying on your death bed-- 5 min. away from death and thinking.. "I didnt give up"
That should bring a smile to anyones face.One day youll see the sun...
one day youll hold your hand in theirs...
One day you wont be alone.I know it feels like hell--
I wish I had the right words for everyone here that feels the same.
I wish I could help everyone....Its such a struggle and Im so sorry you have to feel that pain.
Though in the end? it will be worth it, I promise you.
poster:Daydreamer
thread:310619
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