Posted by Medusa on February 8, 2004, at 2:08:20
In reply to just can't hold on, posted by lepus on February 7, 2004, at 16:28:42
> "The drugs take time".
yeah, they do, but sometimes they're not enough.
> When can we give in? When do we have the right to say, "I have had enough"?
>When you've tried enough different things to have a complete picture of what help is out there and what works and what doesn't work for you.
It sounds like you've tried the same things, over and over and over, and they haven't really worked too well. If you keep trying them, you'll keep getting the same results.
I'm now going with a brutally un-nurturing therapy sort, and in six or so sessions so far it's already made some fast changes. I'm suffering some hefty consequences for living out those changes. I know it's a stage in the process of acceptance that others have to go through since I changed things about myself that were working for them. But it's Hades to go through. I'm having anxiety attacks of severity I never knew possible, I feel like I'm walking around with all my skin peeled off so every 'particle' goes straight to the nerves, and I feel like I just want to tunnel myself into a compost pile and feed the worms. (There's a compost-pro somewhere in Texas who has piles with bacteria that can decompose a horse's carcass in just a few days.)
But this is a +different+ way of feeling like crap than I've gone through before. I don't think it'll be the cure-all - lately I've heard more about EMDR and I think I'm going to find a practitioner and get what I can out of that approach.
I hope this doesn't sound preachy or unsympathetic. In a lot of ways I'm in a similar place to where you are, and I've just had it, I really can't go on the way I've done for so long.
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