Posted by lepus on February 8, 2004, at 15:50:40
In reply to Re: just can't hold on » shar, posted by Ilene on February 8, 2004, at 12:25:16
> > > When can we give in? When do we have the right to say, "I have had enough"?
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> > When you are 50 years old. By then, if things are still hideous, and the landscape has not changed enough to make you want to stay, you can at the very least say you've given it a half-century, and that's enough.
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> > Til then, you survive by doing what you can, meds, therapy, hospital if necessary, Psycho Babble, reading, sleeping.
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> > That, of course, is my own personal philosophy (about being at least 50). In my opinion, the worst time to commit suicide is when you're feeling suicidal (something I've had much experience with). To me, suicide is serious business with lots of consequences, and needs to be given its due as such. There are a lot of things to take care of (you mentioned a DNR--and that would just be one thing).
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> > Hang in there. Landscapes can change at the most unexpected of times. And, you may want to give a look at the little, tiny bright spots that do exist. And, I'm not talking about considering all the bad things that have NOT happened to you, but all the good things that DO exist--for example, you have shelter, you can focus enough to read, in the daytime you can see the sky. And, other stuff is there, too.
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> > Shar
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> Okay, I'll be fifty in a few months. I've given it a good half century; I just don't enjoy life. What should I do now?
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> Ilene
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Ilene,
I am sorry that you are going through so much pain too. First, remember that what Shar pointed out was for her, not all of us. I am sure that part of what she said was to make me realize I am still relatively young as well and need to stick in there. So, keep that in mind. She certainly isn't saying you should kill yourself in a couple of months just because you are turning 50 and still unhappy. But you do have some hope. Aren't you starting Marplan soon? MAOIs have been lifesavers for many. I would say what you should do now is to get on Marplan, see what happens, celebrate your 50th (happy birthday!) and see what comes next. Someone else said on here once that you are never too old to have a better quality of life. Maybe that is what Marplan or one of the other MAOIs will provide for you. I have my fingers crossed.I wish us all well.
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