Posted by zeugma on January 6, 2004, at 18:57:21
In reply to 5 things that make a person appear feminine. » zeugma, posted by Omega Woman on January 5, 2004, at 2:14:50
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> There are many components of behaviour that account for Non male attributes, and none of them are related to having too much Estrogen or the Female Neurology.
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> 1. Shyness..This is a Neurodevelopmental disorder.
Shyness to an extreme= avoidant personality disorder.
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> 2. Depression...Reduces interaction and testosterone,Chronic depression since age ten, maybe, with all the limitation of interaction that caused during my formative years.
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> 3. Right brain dominant...makes a person muddy, generous, trusting and overtly easy going.In my case... I have serious right hemisphere issues, severe inattentive ADD which is thought to be linked to RH dysfunction, Non Verbal Learning Disorder which makes for poor spatial processing, a tenuous feeling of linkage to my own body, 'muddy' for sure, not all that trusting or easy going because of constant (and evident) anxiety...
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> 4. Sensory oversensitivity....This can be caused by numerous biological problems from infections to poor Thalamic relay.
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Yes, I get overstimulated easily, dislike crowds, noise, even close personal contact because it feels too threatening. Klonopin's helped a little with this constant feeling of being overstimulated but i'm not 'normal' yet.
> 5. Male absence...No positive male influence and interest to the child creates identification with female traits..
> Yes, because there are so many genetic components, i did not see my father as being any more 'male' than I am, causing me to hate him all the more because I sensed so much weakness in myself. My mother seemed stronger so i gravitated to her, which only made matters worse from the point of view of establishing a viable male identity.
> thats just what I figured out recently, how many others are they ? Is eastern culture Homophobic or mediterranean ? Would'nt many italian men be considered gay for being so nice and emotional if they existed in Texas or Scotland or Germany ?
>When younger I wanted to be gay because then I would have felt less internal disharmony and feeling of not living up to public perceptions of maleness.
> I think Homophobia is a problem which is stupid and out of control. Someone made a good comment recently that Homophobia is self defeating. If it did'nt exist people would'nt get married to escape the pressure and Gay genes would'nt multiply through the population.
Well, location may be part of it but I feel so much defectiveness in myself that there is little desire to let anyone else see it, as would happen in an intimate relationship. I don't want to establish a relationship with a girl when I feel so much weakness and self-disgust. I'm trying to slowly change myself so I feel less of this negativity but I have a long way to go.
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