Posted by shrimp on October 20, 2003, at 23:53:47
In reply to Re: Dumped and Depressed, posted by KB on May 29, 2002, at 8:34:44
KB,
Oh,i know how that is. I cried at my new job every day all day last year. Thank god, i had a very compassionate boss. i was so thin i was starving, i couldn't walk. i am afraid of that again. I am not trying to scare you. i got over that within a year, but i was also with him again. i never cut him out of my life. Being betrayed is so awful, it's the worst feeling, you feel so dumb and so helpless, at least that is how i feel. You will be okay, it really is awful, especially if you had no idea, but this person has no integrity, that is what i am realizing now even in this horrific grief and lonliness, he is the crazy one, not me, i never deliberately hurt him or lied or cheated. You can take solace at least in the fact that you are the better person. And i am a big, big believer in karma. Try to hang in there, and you know what is proven to be the worst thing for a recovery, DWELLING. It's so hard not to, i am a big dweller, but it doesn't get you anywhere, and it keeps you from moving forward. The guy is a jerk that is it, nothing you can do or wish for will change that. Oh, how I wish i could take my own advice. i am getting the silent treatment again from him right now, i sent him an email asking him if he was interested in how my appointment
with my physician and my psychiatrist went. Guess what, no response. I keep setting myself up, hoping he will care, and i am always disappointed. now he hated me because i called while he was with this new girl, he panicked and thought i was going to come over, which i have never told him or done in the past, he told her she left, so now i have to hear his rage about losing this girl he liked. Talk about twisting the knife in my heart. But, like i said about karma....serves that bastard right. i'm tired, hang in there, let me know how you are. Oh, and one other thing, men are masters at rationalizing their own bad behavior, the things i've seen come out of my ex's mouth absolutely defy logic.shrimp
> Thank you all for your responses. I cried all day yesterday at work, but at least managed to sleep last night. We'll see how today goes.
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> Kar, I did know about the other woman because I noticed that there were certain nights when I couldn't find him - and this is someone who takes his cell phone everywhere and when I'd ask him where he was, he'd say he was with a nameless, genderless friend. Then one day I locked myself out and needed him to let me into my house - when I told him, there was a long pause, and then he wound up explaining that he couldn't come because he was at her house!!! Then, the next day, he insisted he wasn't lying about it because he would have told me if I'd asked!!!
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