Posted by kara lynne on July 13, 2003, at 16:00:14
In reply to Re: Anger/ fallsfall, posted by kara lynne on July 13, 2003, at 13:54:50
Ok, she's not a "therapist" per-se, but many therapists themselves go to her for counseling. Today in our session I spoke some of feeling a little more empowered after speaking to the ex yesterday (because the reality of who he still is was so glaring). I said it probably would have been worse with the office being near the house, because then he wouldn't even have to bring his work home--it would become one.
She then went on to describe what it would probably be like. Granted, my ex deals in extremism and pushes the edges of everything, art, life, sex, politics, anything. She said the place reminded her of the Hefner mansion that he's moving into, and that these parties would probably include people having sex over at the house, with my ex watching. And that he would have probably wanted me to watch too.
I couldn't go on with anything else during the hour. I said that comment just had me back feeling threatened about everything, and that it seemed almost cruel. She apologized and said she shouldn't have made it, but was trying to get me to see that I am not the one who should feel lacking, it is his life that is lacking that he needs all this to feel anything.
I don't know what to think. I feel like I'm having a bad acid trip, or something. It seems like such an inappropriate comment. This woman has been a counselor and tutor for many years; I have been seeing her for over 10 years. It almost seems like I have to get out of this relationship too now, maybe it's just another area I've been turning a blind eye. But she's helped me a lot too, and I'm really not sure.
I don't have the energy or clarity. It's just weird as hell.
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