Posted by magic potion on May 4, 2003, at 20:05:06
The thing that scares me is that people who post here are all on a different level than I am. I think my group can't get out of bed.
Everyone here vocalizes what has them down; Describes their medicinal trials in a very self aware manner; supports each other. The fact that you are all sharing your feelings puts you light years ahead of me. I don't even know what my feelings are, for the most part.
Is there anyone out there who doesn't have the will to live? Do they sell a pill that makes you care about life?
I have a prescription for Lexapro but why bother filling it? Why should I trick myself into thinking that my life is good when it isn't?
Regarding CBT (what recent research shows works for depression)...it's too much work for depressed people. Who are they kidding? I'm not going to write down s*#t. I can barely get out of bed and these goofballs think homework will help me. Apparently, they've mistaken me for someone who cares.
They (CBTers) want to teach you to question your faulty logic...well, if yesterday was horrible and last week was horrible...and last year was horrible....and five years ago my life was horrible, wouldn't it be logical, then, to assume that the rest of my life will be horrible, too?
I can't see how counseling will change my life.
It isn't my perception that sucks; it's my reality.My heart is beating and I have brain activity, but I am not truly living. I am sitting in my room rotting away. This is the life God has planned for me.
What do pdocs do when you will not do anything to help yourself? All I want is for them to fix my external reality, not to play head games and fake me into believing that life is good.
Is there hope for people who don't care? Or is that when they strap you up and shock you?
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thread:224324
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