Posted by lostsailor on September 16, 2001, at 14:54:11
In reply to Re: bitch...everyone » Krazy Kat , posted by sar on September 15, 2001, at 1:29:37
Could you explain the "one of them" thing for me for I am a bit "lost".Sar, I am actually affraid that I am really not cut out for the nine to five world. I have regressed into a sort of primal animal.
Aside for grocery shopping, occasional outings with friends, and mountin biking and running, I am at home most of the time. I started to use tranquilizers at concerrts in order to survive. I did not always need them and took
took them as needed. I procured them from friends in parking lot and my mom. Finally I talked to my doc and was given a presciption for xanax and an ssri, then refered to a psychiatrist after his effort were unfruitful. I told my shink
all about my past use of them as well as the use of other substnces that were used for "recreation." he probed a lot and decided that although they were not pprescribed to me, I was only useing them in a close to medicinal fashion.
he upped my dose and has they have become a central part of my life now. I felt for a while like a junkie until he described the difference between addiction and dependence. That made me feel a bit better.On becoming a psychologist... I was a social worker at the bachelor's level and relatives wonder if that's what drove me "over the edge" I do too in a way, but feel that someday I will go back to the field and help many.
What do you do now for work. Is it satisfying? Doc told me to take a break from grad school and work for a bit and put me on temp disability because things were gettings so tough.What is a 32ouncer. Do you mean 22 like Bass Ale or 40 ouncers like uuuuuummmmmm colt 45, i think Also is Kingfish a band that you recognize?????
In Peace, Tony
> K,
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> being "one of them" is fun, it's like going on a jolly little vacation; i feel like my intellect is really wrecked (but it was when i was severely depressed, too) but i'm learning how to...function somehat like a real person. at work they call me "my own private idaho" because i'm a spacey loner, they do say it affectionately though...it feels good to be *calm.* my anxiety had gone through the roof before meds.
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> passion. raw passion. well, no--i'm still passionate, i'm the type to sob in public, spontaneously hug people i hardly know, feel strongly about my friends and family...and i feel passion for my new boy...i think it's the extremity that's gone. like, i no longer drive around drinking 32-oz-ers thinking about how terrible life is and the perfect suicide plan.
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> i think you're right--i'm not cut out for the 9-5 world. sometimes i think i want to be a psychologist and sometimes i think i want to just marry rich (bad, i know!!). what kind of work do you do?
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> do you think you have multiple personality disorder? i saw trudi chase (*when rabbit howls*) on oprah 10 years ago and have never forgotten that or the TV movie. so is Krazy Kat different from Kingfish?
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> take care babe,
> sar
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