Posted by Dinah on March 23, 2005, at 23:02:33
In reply to Re: Sex again. Sigh. (possible trigger) » Dinah, posted by Toph on March 23, 2005, at 18:05:32
There were a couple of years in my life where my sexuality was not only active but outwardly directed. Two out of fortytwo isn't all that positive I'm afraid.
But even in those two years, I still had the aversion. It was ego-dystonic in those years. I couldn't figure out why, when I wanted to phsyically get close to guys, I panicked and ran from a simple good night peck. One guy stuck it out for me for three dates. Other than that, I was a one date girl.
There seemed to be an exemption for my now husband for a time. I was so happy. I thought my troubles were over. But gradually I quit being "Happy Dinah" and started being just plain me again, and with it the exemption he had seemed to vanish. He still thinks I reeled him in under false pretenses, though since I was myself for a good eleven years between when I stopped being "Happy Dinah" and we got engaged I think that's a bit of an unfair accusation.