Posted by rskontos on April 21, 2008, at 22:49:08
In reply to Re: I think I am pretending in T.....(triggersposs » rskontos, posted by raisinb on April 21, 2008, at 22:39:21
Yes, I thought at first we had some chemistry but now I am not so sure. I opened up because I needed to get some stuff out. I was in crisis mode. I was dissociating all over the place and was having a hard time functioning. He is a good t but he is older and that I think is troubling. I think the sleepy part is upsetting to me. Reminds me of my father and I have issues with him already. So I shut down. I have issues with my mother too, she and my dad were abusers so the sex of the t doesn't matter really. I need to find one that I connect to.
I feel this really deep sadness deep inside where the abuse feelings has settled. I mean at this point I could rise up continue on, but I am not sure if later on I would not have something happen that could cause a set back.
My neuro recommended a therapist I wonder if I should try him out. I just don't know what to do.
But I think you are right chemistry is important.
I have been helped some, but again I or parts of my feel like we have been pretending.
Sometimes I think he feels bored.
I guess I need to bring this up. huh?
rsk
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