Posted by rskontos on April 21, 2008, at 18:20:14
Yes I think I am pretending at this point. I don't know what else to do. There are still things that bother me. He gets sleepy from a sleeping disorder or I mean he has problems sleeping and sometimes I see him getting sleepy. I change the subject and he wakes up but it really bothers me. I am now thinking maybe I am just one of those people that can't get bonded to a therapist in therapy. I did that tapping.com exercise and I know that deep down I am still really bothered by my unexplored SA issues. He and I discussed this today and he says I don't necessarily have to explore them to get better. He thinks I have more energy projecting outwards. We discussed going to once a week. I did take a personality test to see what I might be good at and he wants to discuss those results first then go down to once a week after we resolve my what I am going to do with myself issues. He thinks I am under utilized at the present.
I left therapy and my first thought was I was pretending today. And it is not the first time I have thought that.
I think that my inners are quiet now because they sense I am not going to bond closer with him. I just don't think I can anymore. I don't know.Who is for me actually telling him this? Could I tell him this.
That A) I don't think I am one for bonding to anyone including him
B) I think I am pretending
C) I am not sure what c is. LOL
Anyone with thoughts. I think I am wasting time. Although when I think of my childhood trauma, from the sa to the no love from either parents I am deeply saddened but I am not sure I can be helped with therapy. I still feel numb the minute I walk out the door. Is this dissocating? I dont know anymore.
rsk
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