Posted by muffled on April 22, 2008, at 23:34:13
In reply to Re: a sleepy T... » twinleaf, posted by rskontos on April 22, 2008, at 10:47:40
Sorry, I not been posting much, but to me a better name for dissociative disorder would be confusion disorder.
I dunno bout you, but I am so all over at times, and sometimes I think, no DD for me, I must be dreaming or faking, or SOMEthing, but then other times I am talking and switching and it seems normal and unstoppable.
I find it all INCREDIBLY confusing.
Depending on where I'm at at anyu given moment, my emots can change SO much. Sometimes I think my T is very clever, other times alls I can see is bad, and I get all mixed up. There is a rational part that is quite clear, but its not around that much, so I wallow around all mixed up.
My T said to me that she sometimes feels bad for me, cuz I am sometimes so clear and relaxed, but then other times I am confused by so many opinions.
I am going to soon see a specific DD T, and I think, dunno, but think, that coordination and communication and agreement and nurturing, btwn parts is very important.
I think already I do much better.
I never hear you speak much of the other parts and I wonder if there is something more going on, or maybe a combination of things.
FWIW I would be VERY bothered if my T was falling asleep in session. That would upset various parts for various reasons, and then their reactions would be varied, then there is internal fighting and then I am lost. Nope, wouldn't work for me.
Mebbe your T has more to offer, but if you gonna keep stalling, then mebbe its not so good.
If you can't get past this pretty quick, then I'd look for a new T.
BTW, I somehow doubt you can't bond, the way you write on here is very kind and caring.
And yet....I am thinking of me....noone is close to me...oh sh*t....so I dunno, maybe its more not that we CAN'T bond, but we have our parameters of safety that our security systems will allow only, and mebbe over time they will be able to be more relaxed.
I proly sound like an idiot.
Take care
M
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