Posted by raisinb on April 2, 2008, at 9:35:46
In reply to I'm not bored anymore, posted by Dinah on April 1, 2008, at 20:45:31
I think that's exciting. I agree with Seldom that it sounds like a developmental shift.
I had a therapist friend who used to say, "the thing about new experiences is, you haven't had them yet." It's a cliche, but it is true--when you are experiencing big changes, you cannot pin them down, just because they require different terms and ways of thinking than the ones you're used to.
I have had glimmers of such a shift in the last year or so of my therapy. I wonder the same thing, "what if I don't LIKE her now that I really SEE her?" I think I still like (even love) her in those moments, but there is a profound disappointment in seeing that this person is only human after all, that she can't magically meet all my needs and fix me instantly with her love.
I don't know if I'd be able to handle hearing about her political beliefs yet, though. My biggest secret fears are 1) she doesn't really like me and I'm not important to her, and 2) she's a Republican. Maybe only in my head would these be equally scary...:)