Posted by littleone on February 7, 2007, at 23:21:43
In reply to Re: Telling T big bad secret memory » littleone, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 6, 2007, at 21:45:57
Thanks Llurpsie. I have strong beliefs that talking never helps. I partly understand where that belief has come from and so I try to be open to the idea that perhaps talking can indeed help. So I ball up my courage and tell my T and it never seems to make a difference. It just feels like the talking never helps belief has been reinforced.
And the worst thing is that I can’t even remember what was said to be able to know what he said right or wrong. I know I have the miserable part that rejects everything he says, but I can’t even remember if the talking didn’t help because she was there rejecting, or whether my T really was saying the wrong things.
Had my running shoes on and all laced up after my session. Even if I stayed I wanted to close up shop and give my T nothing else and have vegetable sessions. And instead I’ve written pages upon pages of stuff for him. Have way too much now. But I still don’t want to give him anything. I’m so back and forth. Very conflicted. Therapy is just way too hard for my liking. Ditto for life in general.
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