Posted by ElaineM on January 14, 2007, at 22:35:02
In reply to One More For Elaine, posted by JeffSmith on January 14, 2007, at 9:49:24
Hi Jeff. I haven't been posting much lately, so it's nice to meet you.
>>>>>>and meanwhile it seems your initial issues are not being addressed properly or at all.
No, not anymore. I mentioned it a bit in another reply here, but I was supposed to work on my fear of new people, social anxiety, fear of men and maintaining my recovery from my ED. It's not about that anymore. Oddly enough, it seems like everything is anti-"work". Especially the suggestion of weight loss/diet/exercise was suggested. (My old LadyT would've been shocked - and probably a bit pissed off) Though I've always asked for him to be honest - it's possible that losing some could be physically beneficial. What do I know. The only thing that's better is the self-harm (but I don't know whether that's because of him, or as the only positive consequence to the health problems I've been learning to cope with the past year, or even just cause I'm not emaciated and wildly unstable - I don't know) But he hasn't always been "bad". And he's not *always* "bad" now. I really don't like condemning anyone cause I'm nowhere near a better person.....*sigh* That's what makes this situation so hard.
Thanks for the encouragement. I hope I have good help some day. Someone who'll know everything, and only want to help me, and be trustworhty knowing all this stuff -- not just want to listen so they can report him instead. I don't expect to get it - but I hope. It's be a relief.
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