Posted by Lindenblüte on November 7, 2006, at 21:55:04
In reply to Re: I've Done What You've Said And No Results, posted by Jost on November 7, 2006, at 21:30:10
(((((Phillipa))))))
Thank you for trusting us enough to share these difficult memories. Jost is very smart, and I can hardly add anything, but I just wanted to tell you that you are doing a great job.
You raised your own children very well, even though you didn't have a good role model. You are very strong-willed, which gets you on the bike more often than this 20-something blob! AND you are very smart. Please don't disparage yourself for being dumb, or for not handling things better.
You are human, that's why you hurt. The things that happened to you, especially when you were young-- well, that stuff can really affect how you feel about yourself. Even if you think it's gone away, or you're beyond it- well, it sounds like you had a really tough time.
Of course you could have done things differently. Well, what if you had? I think you've done very well, considering that you've been able to keep going, keep learning, and keep helping others. You have a very kind and very giving heart, Phillipa. You will be surprised that you DESERVE to be helped, and that you are WORTH all the kindness and care you give others. You've made a career out of helping others. Back when you were working, what if a 60-y.o. woman like you had come into your care? What if you had to give her medicine, and calm her anxiety when she didn't know if she'd ever be able to join the labor force again? What if you had to hear her tell you a story that had a lot of human tragedy? I bet you would be a good listener. I bet you wouldn't judge her, or think that she was a bad person. I think you'd probably hold her hand and give her a tissue if she started crying, and make sure that people were checking up regularly on her, even when you were off duty.
Sometimes you have to be stronger to ask for help and to accept help than you do to give help. I think that you're strong enough, though. Please keep posting, and babble will hold your hand.
love,
Li
poster:Lindenblüte
thread:701076
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