Posted by muffled on October 23, 2006, at 15:31:36
In reply to Re: ok-Mebbe this will help others too... » muffled, posted by Lindenblüte on October 23, 2006, at 15:11:24
> I used to have a character named Pandora that I would trot out for my friends in 9th grade. When I was acting like Pandora, I'd do all sorts of gutsy things that Li would NEVER do. My friends started asking for her so much though, and Li started to feel underloved even more than usual. Pandora went back inside and hasn't really come out since then much.
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> She's a wild reckless teenager. I wonder if she was an inner person, or just a role I was playing to get out of my social confines and amuse my friends?***Hmmm, interesting. I dunno. I could be quite a b*dass teen too...looking back, I dunno if it was toughie, or just an angry muffled? Dunno? I packed a knife since I was like mebbe 8 or so? But toughie I think of as being around 12 or so. Hmmmmm.
It IS interesting that you would say that "Li started to feel underloved even more than usual. Pandora went back inside and hasn't really come out since then much."
Cuz I know jealousy can be a prob. w/my inner people..
Also, that she hasn't come out 'much'. Does that mean she does come out, independantly of your(Li's) will?
Hmmmmm.
I guess the thing I would try and think of frim my pov, would be if Li was there and present and aware of the behavior at the time, and if she had a DIFFERENT emotional perspective on it than the person who was doing the behavior. If that makes any sense?
I don't think I can look back and see stuff like that. I can only know my people here and now. What I feel from them in the moment. I can't look back and say, 'that was toughie' when I did that 10 years ago. I could guess, bur I wouldn't know.
But mebbe thats due to my memeory probs?
Its all very interesting.
Guess I've fallen abck on being the scientist bout this all. Impassively observing the weirdness. Its not me, its just this person and their odd behaviors that i am observing with interest...
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> whatever. I'll think about it.***Good luck!
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> -Li**Muffled
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