Posted by alexandra_k on October 12, 2006, at 6:12:21
In reply to Re: b » Lindenblüte, posted by alexandra_k on October 12, 2006, at 5:18:44
missed time
woke up down the hall...
got a towel got to my room
got some clothes and went to see my t
flashes
i messed up
i messed up real bad
saw my t
told her
scared about missing time
feel numb
things pass in waves
flashes
saw guy from CAT
morning after over the counter
need to call them tomorrow and tell them
i'm okay.
haven't seen him yet
what to say?
other people know
guys are going 'hey' in a way...
they know
they think i'm a slut
maybe i am.
i cringe from myself.
need to talk to him
and say what?
please don't tell anyone?
they know already.
not all of them...
yet
but it is just a matter of time
x has gone away for a few months
he liked me
i wasn't interested
but he will hear about this and be hurt
it is about
intimacy with no intimacy
i hate myself
i want to move out
but i can't
i want to die
but i can't
what happened?
why am i on self destruct?
i don't have anyone i can talk to...
i'm so sorry
poster:alexandra_k
thread:693465
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