Posted by caraher on September 2, 2006, at 17:59:09
In reply to Re: empty » annierose, posted by ElaineM on September 2, 2006, at 14:22:28
> oh god, i feel really bad again. i'm so untrust-worthy. i feel so bad. I hate me. I don't care what happens.
(((El))) You ARE trustworthy. Your T betrayed YOUR trust by foisting on you a relationship you never sought from him. We love you, hope you feel better soon and care very much what happens!
> I think CC was grossed out. She didn't really know what to say except that it was not my responsibility. But she wouldn't listen to me trying to explain what I did. She wasn't hearing. I shouldn't be blameless in everything just because I'm a crazy. But her answer to the examples I gave was always something like, HE should know better. But I think she was really grossed out.Yes - by your T's misbehavior! It doesn't get much more unethical than what he's done with you. It would shock and disgust any conscientious proactioner of a helping profession!
You say she wasn't hearing what you did. You're quite wrong there. I'm certain she heard every word. What you call "not hearing" was actually her disagreement with your belief that this is somehow your fault. It isn't. Period. As someone said on an earlier thread, you could strip naked and dance on the table in front of your T and it wouldn't diminish his responsibility to maintain proper behavior.
> I was only to see her once to "check in", she said, because I shouldn't be seeing her without being a student anymore. But she wants to see me once more next week
I'm very, very glad she will see you. (You'll go, right?)
> But I did say that I'd please like a female T.
Good!
Keep this up, El. You've taken the first step down the road to getting *genuine* help, the hep you richly deserve!
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