Posted by ElaineM on August 6, 2006, at 0:13:30
In reply to Re: my psychiatrist appt » ElaineM, posted by kerria on August 5, 2006, at 23:44:30
Kerria, I'm so sorry for upsetting you. I wanted the exact opposite -- I'm really really sorry.
>>>>Why would my dr think i was manipulating?
I'm sorry, I do this alot. I speculate too much, and run off on random brain-storms, and infuse too much of myself into other people's posts. You were actually very clear in what you were describing. I don't know at all what your Doc was actually thinking. What I should've said was that, in my exchanges with a T I had, she viewed every outpouring of emotion, as an attempt on my part to manipulate her (She thought I only wanted drugs, when I really hated to take them). And I also had a similiar encounter with a supervising pdoc at one of my treatment centers. So I'm sorry if I made you worry about what your pdoc thought of you. I'm not used to speaking with people so often, and I may not know how to do that properly. I'm really sorry to have upset you.
I mainly wanted to let you know how much I wished you had received a more sensitive reaction -- and then I go and do the exact opposite. I think a person can be perfectly understandable even when the listener doesn't understand. So please don't let your pdoc, or my, density stop you from trying.
I care about you. I'm can't stop saying how sorry I am that I said something so stupid. It's so late, that I'm worried I'll say something else wrong, but maybe I'll be clearer tomorrow. Sorry.
((((Kerria)))) [safe hugs]
Elaine
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