Posted by inimitable on July 21, 2006, at 12:28:47
like the situation in the post above, i am infatuated with my T, i don't want to call it love cause i don't even KNOW him!!!! but today i am seeing him, not a regular appnt, which is usually on mondays (which then is followed by a week of torture, forever thinking of the next time i'll see him). but this week has been especially bad, and this is my first unplanned appointment, where i absolutely needed to see him. but i knew the weekend would be too much. and i have come to a (kind of) descision. i don't know if i'll stick to it, maybe he'll talk me out of it, or maybe he'll agree with me. my descision is that i think i am only really going to therapy to see him, i have problems yes, but they mainly went away when my husband left the house and seeing as how that was the main problem, we have just been working on some DBT and other skills, to help me in the future. but this therapy has only created another problem in my life- trying to cope with the fact that i will never be with him in any romantic way. this is my problem in life right now, nothing else in my life is very hard to cope with except for that! so i think, even though it will break my heart to stop seeing him, even just as my therapist, that i should stop seeing him all together and not even see another therapist, because the only problem in my life, as i said, are my feelings for t, and i think i can handle them on my own, as long as i don't have a weekly reminder (appt with t). but i don't know if i'll actually stick to this descision. i may be weak and end up sticking with therapy, because every time i think about never seeing him again or hearing his wonderful voive (soft and gentle, with some type of small accent, but also a little monotone, if that's possible), i tear up and end up crying.
anyways my appointment is in an hour, wish me luck!*inimitable
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