Posted by orchid on March 6, 2006, at 20:14:09
In reply to Iíve changed my mind: itís too scary (TRIGGERS), posted by Tamar on February 24, 2006, at 9:27:58
I am very sorry you are hurting so bad. I actually originally thought it is a very bad idea to go back to the same T towards whom you had intense transference. Later I came to think maybe it will be ok for you, but now I changed my mind again. Would you consider going to a female T? I really think it would help you a lot more and much less of this heart break. It will get really difficult for you to handle if your transference comes back in full force again - now that you are cutting. I was actually really quite surprised that after reading babble and seeing the hardships of everyone, you chose to go back to your T again. Why put yourself in transference knowingly? I think with every pull back from him, you will hurt even more.
Please take care of yourself. I care quite a bit about you, and it is really heart breaking to see you hurting so much. I am sorry I can't help you more these days, since I don't have a connection. (I am in the US right now, staying in a hotel and will be here for a month or so and the hotel internet connection is awfully bad).