Posted by Poet on October 1, 2005, at 12:21:01
In reply to Shame - trigger, posted by daisym on September 28, 2005, at 23:40:02
Hi Daisy,
At the end of the last session I told T I was sorry I told her something. She asked if I thought she was going to judge me. I said of course you will, you are human, we judge others. She thinks I tell her something and then feel ashamed/have regrets about it as a way to hurt myself. Punish myself. I think she is right, but I've been doing this to myself for so long that I don't know how to stop it. T says her goal for me has always been for me to take it easy on myself- learn to give myself a break.
Daisy, I think you need to give yourself a break. I know, easy for me to say, and not do. Your T needed to know you are more suidical. That is nothing to be ashamed of. My T keeps telling me that she cares about me and I can't change that. You're T cares about you, and you can't change it, either.
BTW I don't think suicide is the easy way out. I think it's taking a risk that whatever happens to me will be better. Staying here and trying to work through my messed up thoughts/life isn't easy either.
(((((((((Daisy)))))))))
Poet
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