Posted by antigua on October 3, 2005, at 12:16:01
In reply to Re: Shame new trigger - long reply » antigua, posted by daisym on October 2, 2005, at 15:23:22
It didn't feel like a lecture at all, Daisy.
If there wasn't a huge black hole of terror in my life, I'd accept your suggestion that I just have to accept it and pretty much move on. But there is something there, Daisy. I don't know how I know this, or how to even explain it to you, but it is an absolute truth. Nothing else holds anywhere near the terror. I am more willing now to accept that I may never know what it is, and I live with that everyday and function pretty well, but I know that it's there. To me it has come down to a decision of closing the wound w/o knowing or just keep going. The problem is that when I believe I can close it, something happens (flashback, body sensations, etc.) to put me right back to where I was.
I feel incredibly blue today. I can't even write today.
best,
antigua
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