Posted by daisym on October 1, 2005, at 20:23:14
In reply to Re: Shame - trigger » daisym, posted by Poet on October 1, 2005, at 12:21:01
We've had that whole judgement discussion. My chosen type of si is really embarrassing and impossible to talk about. He wants to and I just shut down.
I think you are right about how hard it is to stay here and it is equally hard to decide to end it too. I get through most of the gates but there is one too big to get around yet. I suspect that it would take a huge stressor to make me smash through it in order to get it done.
I wish I didn't have these thoughts at all. It makes me feel guilty to make my therapist worry. I know I can't control his feelings but I do have control over what I tell him which effects how he feels. I just need to find a way to shut myself up. It is really hard.
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