Posted by Tamar on September 25, 2005, at 16:52:28
In reply to dream about T, posted by Shortelise on September 25, 2005, at 11:58:55
Hi ShortE,
Interesting dream!
> I am in his office with him, his new office I've yet to see, and he is sitting behind a desk. He is very fat, his head fat, his body long and fat, his legs fat but very short, sharply tapered and with little tiny tiny feet. I wonder that he can walk. He is deformed. (In actuality he is slim.)
If there’s a desk between you, it means you can’t see much of him (and he can’t see much of you). In one way that protects you, but at the same time you’re not able to be fully open with him. If he seems fat and deformed in the dream despite being slim in real life, then perhaps you might be worrying that he’s deceiving you in some way.
> Then I am in the hall outside of his office, can't remember leaving, can't remember the end of the session, want to talk with him for a few minutes, so I wait. I look in the outer office, there are other psychiatrists there, but he is not there, and the door to his office is closed.
If you want him but he’s not there and his door is closed, perhaps this is about termination fears?
> I wait in the hall on a bed, taking out my jewellry and spreading it on the bed, find more jewellry between the bed and the wall, silver chains and charms. Some people come and lie on the bed next to mine, also waiting for something, they have a dog that plays, plays with me, bites me playfully on the face and head and I am afraid, I scream, my T comes, is annoyed that I have disturbed him, looks at the jewellry arrayed on the bed with impatient disdain. I try to tell him, try to explain that I couldn't remember leaving, and that there are things I need to tell him, to talk with him about. He is dismissive, thinks this a ploy for attention.I reckon that the bed together with the jewellery is about how you feel you appear, and your therapist’s impatient disdain suggests that you fear he only sees what’s on the surface and doesn’t understand fully what’s underneath. The sense of fear when the dog bites you perhaps suggests a fear of being symbolically bitten (hurt) by your therapist. Especially if you’ve annoyed him in your dream…
It seems to me that there’s a lot in this dream about exposing yourself emotionally and your fears about how your therapist might react. I wonder whether you feel it’s hard to trust him at the moment.
What did you make of the dream?
Tamar
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