Posted by gardenergirl on July 24, 2005, at 12:48:35
In reply to Re: I had to cancel my session this morning :( » Dinah, posted by All Done on July 24, 2005, at 0:42:14
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> Mostly this line of thinking stemmed from the fact that I haven't heard from a lot of my face to face friends lately. I know everyone is busy over the summer, but I still got to thinking about it.
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> I wonder if I tend to overwhelm my friends. Or, if I'm not overwhelming them, I worry about overwhelming them. I think sometimes I'm just too much for them and I don't ever want to bug anyone with my stuff. So, I try really hard not to talk about myself "too much" (whatever that is) and I try not to ask for much. I think I do this with my husband, my T, and probably some of you guys, as well.
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> Since I work so hard at not imposing on others, sometimes I have little contact with my friends. Or...maybe not the contact I really need or want. Maybe when I don't call them it's kind of an out of [sight], out of mind thing or something. Or, maybe they can't read my mind - can you believe that?? I end up feeling lonely and kind of like they don't care much or even like me sometimes.
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> I don't know. It's all a bit confusing to me because I also catch myself feeling like I'm "not enough" for these same people - not friendly/smart/funny/pretty (take your pick) enough.
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> To quote my T about something else we talked about last week...I don't think I can have it both ways.
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> Glad you asked? ;)Oh my gosh, I understand this really really well. I'm right there with you, and it stinks, it really does. In my case, I think it has as much to do with anxiety as anything else...you know...not taking the risks needed to sustain a friendship out of fear of rejection?
Grrrrr. It really stinks.
Talk to you soon,
gg
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