Posted by pinkeye on April 13, 2005, at 18:07:21
In reply to Re: worst fear come true? » pinkeye, posted by Tamar on April 13, 2005, at 17:38:35
I have spoken to my new T about this.. she says, what I am feeling is really about my father, and not about my ex T.
But it doesn't relieve me of the hurt that I feel and the abandonment.. And I can see your point, but somehow it just hurts and hurts and hurts. I try to push it away and move on, only to go back to hurting a few days later. Somehow I really trusted my old T, and wanted to do it right so much. But now I feel like screaming to myself and wishing I didn't have to go through it once again. I cannot imagine how stupid I have been to like and trust someone who doesn't like me back yet again. I knew all along he just thought of me as a patient and was indifferent to me. And that is what he told me in the end also. And I know he was honest and sincere, and I didn't really matter to him. But just that it hurts me. And I really don't know how to move on. Somehow I feel it is all my fault.
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