Posted by cubic_me on April 6, 2005, at 3:32:19
In reply to Re: suicidal ideation an addiction? ***si trigger* » B2chica, posted by littleone on April 5, 2005, at 21:37:50
> However, I had held off si'ing for quite a long time and the addiction to using it to change my feelings just wasn't there for me anymore. But I did get quite another obsession that I don't really understand. I just *wanted* to cut. I don't know if it was because I missed the cuts on my hand, or if I wanted to use the cuts to communicate my pain to people (even though they are usually hidden), or whatever. I don't understand the why. Even when I was feeling good, I still wanted the cuts.
I am going through the 'wanting to cut' at the moment, and it is heartening to know that I am not alone. I'm sorry that you have had to go through all of this too though.
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