Posted by littleone on February 18, 2005, at 17:59:46
In reply to Emotional Abandonment, posted by daisym on February 17, 2005, at 0:45:03
Daisy, thank you for sharing, gave me some stuff to consider.
Abandonment came up for me for the first time just the other day. I was cranky with my T because in a prior session he had tried to dig into a very upsetting topic for me literally as he was about to stand up and finish the session. I was an absolute wreck when I left.
When this was raised with him at our next session, I was saying "you raised that just as you were about to leave". He talked about this and said how most people would consider that I was the one leaving. He doesn't go anywhere. I get what he's saying, but for me, he's the one leaving. I'd sit in there all day if I could.
Besides that, I haven't really delved into this aspect much. Although I'm sure it is a buried issue for me.
I suspect that I'm so detached with people because I fully expect to be abandoned. I don't know if I have a fear of it as such. It's just something I know will happen so by staying detached I'm protecting myself from the inevitable.
Also, I must say that I am just flabbergastered by how much you remember from your sessions. You could almost do a total playback. I'm flat out remembering the main point discussed. It astounds me.