premeditating SI (caution may trigger)

Posted by crushedout on April 3, 2004, at 22:13:28

I've been planning to cut myself really badly on Monday because I see my T on Tuesday and I think I want to show her how much pain I'm in and also how she's hurting me and convince her that our therapy is no longer working.
Isn't that weird, stupid, messed up? I don't know what. It's hard to even confess it to you guys because it sounds so manipulative. And I know it's wrong. I should just express myself with words to her on Tuesday, but I feel like I haven't been able to convey stuff with words lately. I think that's why I've been resorting to cutting. But this pre-meditation stuff is really twisted.

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premeditating SI (caution may trigger) crushedout 4/3/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » crushedout Fallen4myT 4/3/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » Fallen4myT crushedout 4/3/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » crushedout Fallen4myT 4/3/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » Fallen4myT crushedout 4/3/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » crushedout Fallen4myT 4/3/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) sexylexy 4/4/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » crushedout Dinah 4/4/04
Re: Important clarification Dinah 4/4/04
Re: Important clarification » Dinah crushedout 4/4/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » crushedout fallsfall 4/4/04
i can't find the words crushedout 4/4/04
brilliant idea » fallsfall crushedout 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words » crushedout Pfinstegg 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words » Pfinstegg crushedout 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words gardenergirl 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words » gardenergirl crushedout 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words gardenergirl 4/4/04
Re: Important clarification » crushedout Dinah 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words » gardenergirl crushedout 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words » gardenergirl crushedout 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words gardenergirl 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words » gardenergirl crushedout 4/4/04
Re: i can't find the words gardenergirl 4/4/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) Miss Honeychurch 4/5/04
my grandma died today crushedout 4/5/04
Re: premeditating SI (caution may trigger) » Miss Honeychurch crushedout 4/5/04
soory about your loss :-( (nm) Fallen4myT 4/5/04
thanks, fallen (nm) crushedout 4/5/04
Re: my grandma died today » crushedout DaisyM 4/5/04
Re: my grandma died today » crushedout Raindancer 4/5/04
thank you daisy and raindancer crushedout 4/5/04
Re: my grandma died today Joslynn 4/5/04
Re: my grandma died today » crushedout gardenergirl 4/5/04
thanks everyone crushedout 4/5/04
Re: my grandma died today » crushedout All Done 4/5/04
Re: I'm very sorry for your loss. (nm) » crushedout Dinah 4/6/04
Re: my grandma died today » crushedout terrics 4/6/04
Redirect: my grandma died today Dr. Bob 4/6/04
had therapy today it was so painful crushedout 4/6/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful gardenergirl 4/6/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » gardenergirl crushedout 4/6/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » crushedout fallsfall 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » fallsfall EmmyS 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » fallsfall crushedout 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful crushedout 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » crushedout terrics 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful/p.s. » terrics terrics 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » crushedout Dinah 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful joslynn 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » crushedout DaisyM 4/7/04
thank you all so much crushedout 4/7/04
The Rest of the Story (long) fallsfall 4/7/04
Re: had therapy today it was so painful » crushedout fallsfall 4/7/04
Re: thank you all so much » crushedout fallsfall 4/7/04
Re: The Rest of the Story (long) » fallsfall crushedout 4/7/04
hallways crushedout 4/7/04
Re: thank you all so much gardenergirl 4/7/04
Re: The Rest of the Story (long) » fallsfall terrics 4/7/04
p.s. i have not si'd (nm) crushedout 4/8/04
Re: p.s. i have not si'd » crushedout fallsfall 4/8/04
Great to see that P,S, :) (nm) Fallen4myT 4/8/04
Way to go, crushed! (nm) gardenergirl 4/8/04

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