Posted by Maxime on September 12, 2010, at 16:55:33
In reply to Re: Go away bad thoughts, go AWAY! » Maxime, posted by SLS on September 12, 2010, at 5:08:27
> > Despite getting a job, I have to be honest and say that my thoughts are still very dark. Tonight is not a good night. I'm still thinking of suicide and wanting to kill myself. But how can that be? I should be thankful and relieved that I got that job.
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> > I hate this so much. I wish I didn't have so many bad thoughts.
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> I hope you understand that this is the depression talking. You would have these thoughts even if you had won the lottery. In my opinion, CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) can be helpful, even if you are suffering from a biogenic depression. It really is not a singular answer for your predicament. However, CBT can be a good coping tool that helps you evaluate the negative thoughts when they arise and perform reality checks that challenges their validity. CBT can help you deal with negative thoughts while you are still searching for an effective biological therapy.
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> By the way, how long did the Parnate work for before it pooped-out?
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> - Scott
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>Scott, I know that CBT would help a lot. I really need to see a pyschologist for a few years. But I can't afford it and psychologists are not part of Canada's health plan.
I started the Parnate in October 2009 and it helped, but it only brought me to about 75 percent okay which is really good enough for me to function.
Every went wrong in March of this year when my mom was diagnosed with cancer and had surgery. I was under so much stress and my still hasn't come back to what is was in 2009. I don't think the Parnate is pooping out on me ... I think life is just sh*tt*ng on my head all the time that it's hard to get up again.
Thanks for your response Scott.
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
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Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.
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