Posted by Barbara Cat on August 1, 2003, at 3:13:14
In reply to Re: Thanks Katy, Katia, posted by PhilipCarey on July 31, 2003, at 21:21:51
Thanks for barging. Much appreciated. It's meant alot at how my Babble Buds have bouyed me up during this crummy time. Yes, I was on Remeron a year ago. It worked beautifully for a few months and then pooped into a massive mixed states depression. Went on lithium to augment it, not knowing that I was really dealing with Bipolar rather than major depression. You probably caught me when I was on the upswing from the combo. The two worked great for 3 months, better than any other, and then pooped again. It was at this point I decided I didn't want to do SSRI's any more because of the classic zoom and poop routine that I've had on every one of them. I put on 30 lbs on Remeron and felt either sluggish or agitated. Plus, I still couldnt sleep. So it's not worth it. I've felt much better in general from lithium and lamictal, although this current spell is a down and dirty one. Meds don't seem to be metabolizing. I don't think I'm so much anti-med as much as being committed to my dying day to finding the right ones and using my increased clarity and health as a springboard to better functioning. If I can get through each day I feel like I've done something notable, even if it's only laying on my hammock. A day without multi hits of panic is a darn good one and I have to thank my blessings.
I really think we can do it as long as we build up reserves and have help nearby. Sure wish I could find a good sleeper, though. It really affects my fibromyalgia badly and that's a whole other story. The bottom line is that for me, meds haven't living up to their potential and I think it has somethingvto do with - somethine, Idont' know. So with nothin but myself to turn to I', goin to weather this out on lam and lihium and hope I don't damage any wires in the process. So, thanks for your concern and suggestion. If you have any other ideas, keep 'em coming. I think I'm in for a long spell with this one and company is helping so much. - Barbara
> Barbara, don't mean to barge in on the thread, but a while back I remember reading your posts, and how great you were doing on Remeron and Lithium. I wondered whether a bit of Remeron might help you gain some much needed sleep. I don't really remember why it was that you quit that. Seems you were anti-meds for a bit, and that's the last I read.
> Best of luck to you. I can sure tell you're going through a difficult time right now.