Posted by Barbara Cat on August 1, 2003, at 2:51:22
In reply to Re: Feeling pretty bad » Barbara Cat, posted by katia on August 1, 2003, at 1:38:14
I've had wonderful luck with therapists and wish I had a good one right now. I'm in a huge HMO and it's like a revolving door. Those poor people are so overworked and stressed out themselves. My pdoc doesn't do therapy. I think I'm going to have to find one I'm paying out of pocket as well. You can spend more time and get into some important issues instead of the quick fix limited sessions. Besides, I had reason to look at my medical records and was absolutely shocked at how exposed my history is to anyone you sign your life away to, like jobs, bank accounts, loans. We don't think about such things and assume we're getting a deal by having insurance pay. Insurance companies demand detailed record keeping and nothing is safe, no matter who says differently. It concerns me greatly. I think privacy is maintained when insurance doesn't get involved. Thanks for clearing things up, but I'm with you - also a big fan of good therapy.
> it my extra sensitive nervous system due to med withdrawal? Is it something I should be processing?
> > I've grown weary and suspicious of the whole psychotherapist thing, especially with the in-and-out managed care travesty and health records open to far too many people. Here I am with the only place left to go, and that is Spirit, my inner knowing, and maybe that's what I need to learn. It's as good enough reason as any, I guess. So, luckily, I'm in a position where I'm not working, can swing on my hammock on the porch, pet my cats, ocassionally talk to the hubby, keep taking lithium and lamictal, but by God, I will not go back to an antidepressant again. There's got to be another way. Like you wisely said, we will beat this thing. Maybe not 100% but I'll take what I can get. Love and thanks to you. - Barbara
> For some reason I feel partially responsible for all this questioning of psychotherapy - in regards to my questioning my own dollars spent over the years. I meant it in my first posting as simply - it's hard to decipher what's what with moods and natural need to process; esp. in the face of medications. I feel like a lot of people going are starting to bash therapy. Maybe it's me, but I think it's a good thing. it's just important to tease out if youcan
> (and you can do this in therapy) what is the depression and what is real stuff that needs to be processed.
> Maybe I've read into things too much; but it seems ever since I wrote some honest feelings about therapy, a lot of people have written it off. Is it my imagination? FYI, I've never been to a therapist under any insurance. I go solely from my own pocket. And that pocket is nothing. My rent alone is $750 per month. Most people I know go to someone not under HMOs or the like.