Posted by Barbara Cat on August 5, 2003, at 11:51:59
In reply to Re: Thanks Katy, Katia » Barbara Cat, posted by katia on August 4, 2003, at 0:47:45
That's so great that you're improving without meds. It's a big inspiration for me. Getting the meds out of the system and having patience while the body chemistry adjusts (if it's ever going to) is a big challenge. I always wonder if good feelings are due to hypomania, if discomfort is my 'real' symptoms rearing their ugly heads, or if it's just withdrawal detox that will eventually resolve. The waiting is hard especially if you don't know if it's doing damage or good. Thanks for the validation on simplifying and knowing that someone has made it for a good stretch of time. Maybe if life gets really tough at some point you'll opt to start taking meds again, but at least you've had this time to clean out and reset the circuits.
About the redirect and crush on pdo conversation, I'd be happy to follow you to a new thread, but it's been my experience that my own and other's threads have been lost in space when they get redirected. It always feels like wandering into unknown territory with a redirect 'cause I've made most of my friends on the psych babble board. But, heck, I guess it's a good opportunity to meet new folks. If you can paste a link address if the thread made it to social, I'll jump over to it.
I'm going away for 10 days so it might be a while, but as Arnie says 'I'll be back'. Besides, girlfriends have to keep in touch! - Barbara
It's been over a year since I've been med free. and my body is starting to adjust very well. I think that taking those ADs for the past year made me worse. I've been w/o any meds for about three weeks now. the first two were hard, but now I"m starting to feel "brighter". like the song - things are going to get brighter. It feels amazing .. I'm so happy that I've finally risen out of darkness.
> Anyway, i wanted to bring up an issue and maybe this is reserved for a "social" issue and if it is will you please follow it with me? that's what i hate about being re-directed, i"m never sure if people will follow it or not.
> anyway - it's this. I know it's totally ridiculous and typical and he's probably gay - nothing wrong with this at all and which is great for gay men, but not so good for me, but I don't know what to do with this. I have a crush on my psychiatrist. Yes, I do. I feel ridiculous. I can't help it. he's a bit older, very educated, funny (with sense of humor), and intelligent and able to converse on an emotional level and why not????? Really?!
> Anyway I've thought about not posting this. I'm still waiting for the depakote in the mail. I honestly am thinking that I need to give it a try with no meds. I am starting to feel normal and I can focus and I feel happy to be alive. And I don't want to call this hypomanic. I want to keep this feeling. Can't I just be exuberant and joyful to be alive without being labeled? really. I need to know what is going on with me without meds. I'm not sure if I'll take the depakote when it comes in the mail.
> how are you?
> will you follow this thread if it goes to social babble?