Posted by dove on September 30, 1999, at 15:10:00
In reply to Re: Caught in my own head, posted by Sean on September 30, 1999, at 14:10:59
I think something is in the air lately. I have been ruminating for the last couple days over these same issues. I feel this desperate need to create, now! I love to write, play piano, draw ect..(artsy stuff) It is winding up like a clock inside, waiting for that alarm to ring and set me free.
The physiognomy of this creativity seems grounded in pain and devouring energy, I feel like I will have to relinquish my creativity to be sane or create and reside in ruin. I have written more in the last three days than in the last year, specifically on this board.
I used to view this message board once a day, quietly digesting and lurking. Lately, I feel this urgent need to dispel these thoughts that have been revolving in my mind. It's as if my emotions have been locked up for some time and I opened the door just a sliver and the monster inside has shoved its way out and is challenging my authority. I don't know if I'm fighting it or allowing it to have it's way.
~dove (audaciously rambling on again.)
Maybe the changing season is causing all this chaos.
poster:dove
thread:12306
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