Posted by Bob on September 30, 1999, at 11:08:42
In reply to Caught in my own head, posted by JennyAnn on September 30, 1999, at 9:39:22
Ah, now THAT'S the paxil I know and hate!
Actually, you didn't say if you went of the paxil before or after the depression hit back. Which was it?
About the link between the darkness and your "muse", I was going to say I know how you feel ... but I don't, not for a long time. Ten years ago, I was on a pre-web electronic BBS for student teachers and their instructors (I was of the latter). Student after student was complaining about this bad experience and that bad experience, all chocking them up as "learning experiences". I made me ask, "Is there any sort of learning experience that ISN'T negative?" One wonderful woman wrote a wonderful reply that listed 20-30 things, like watching the sun rise to holding your first-born for the first time, that were all positive. Even for me -- I'm not trained in any way, shape, or form as any sort of creative writer (I'm a research writer, we're not supposed to create--only document ;^)--I've written two poems about my depression and I'm working on this multimedia project to try to capture my magical misery tour on meds. But I've also written one poem that was rather passionate and racy (while keeping the language PG-13, which was an interesting challenge given the topic ... shame is I lost my only copy of it in a hard drive crash last Jan.) Meds aren't supposed to make you any less complicated. Hopefully, they'll give you new energy to do even more with your art. Sane (to some degree, at least ;^) and complicated are not mutually exclusive.
Cheers,
Bob
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