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Caught in my own head

Posted by JennyAnn on September 30, 1999, at 9:39:22

I am really thanful for your repsonses to my posts, it helps to normalize....you see here is the paradox: when I was on paxil (before it seemed to lose effectiveness) I was not depressed! for the first time in my life, I could retrospectively look at my expereinces and emotional health and what I saw was major depression and anxiety controlling my life, my choices, coloring every aspect of me. for a while I was calm; I have attempted to achieve this calm so MANY other depstructive ways. Finally I felt ok. and then I began to sink in to the deepest depression I have ever expreinced. I know there were some situational factors that motivated this, but I also know that I have never felt to apathetic, so lethargic; my numbness became debilitating. After going off AD's, I see that the anxiety that I am riddled with, is actually an important component of my intellectual, creative experience. my depression is also a component of myself that has motivated me to produce beautiful art and poetry. SO I guess I am fighting myself here, in this message board arena, and it is a no win battle; I want to embrace the complicated parts of me, but I depserately want to feel sane, in control, balanced. I fear this is not possible, that I must sacrifice one for the other.
talk to me...any thoughts?
thanks for hearing me...
JennyAnn


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