Posted by DL on October 13, 1998, at 19:24:57
In reply to Re: Progress?, posted by Toby on October 12, 1998, at 8:06:56
For some reason I couldn't connect with this site the last few days.
For a while I seemed to be feeling more sturdy and less affected by everything. It was nice. But today I was back in the mode of high muscle tension, tense shoulders and chest and that inner feeling of being vulnerable and anxious at the same time. It makes me feel like I can't handle my work and plans for the future--very unsure of myself. I could not get anything done at work today--felt like I was only half there during evaluations with a family. NOT GOOD!
No coffee/stimulants either. -- Makes me feel like I want to scream and just go off and hide somewhere. I catch myself constantly holding my breath again.
I forgot to take the tiny dose of estrogen I have been taking in the morning, but I don't think that was the trigger. The natural progesterone I take at night has sleepy side effects and that is OK. Only other change is that I was taking a really good grade multi from at natural pharmacy and ran out 2 days ago. I DON'T LIKE THIS FEELING! Now I know I can feel otherwise it is hard to take.
I continue to feel really groggy in the morning. And today the fog followed me--causing that lack of concentration and also motivation. Why is this happening? Was the improvement fake? Or do people slip back like this? Tension underneath fog is not fun.
Especially the motivation thing is becoming big. It is hard to make myself do more than the essentials, even going to grocery store. Just managing work and basic survival is hard enough. Is this all related to stress and my turned over life? Or what?
> I've had several patients tell me that the best thing for the increased hunger on Remeron is a banana and a rice cake
Thank you. I will try this.
The raised level of anxiety today blocked the appetite.Have not taken klonopin in a week. Have not been taking the kava either. THe natural progesterone seems to help me sleep some perhaps along with Remeron. Still not the best sleep ever, but not as bad as it was before--so some improvement lingers.
I want the sturdy, level, grounded feeling back....
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