Posted by Susan47 on October 5, 2006, at 19:13:02
In reply to Re:, posted by susan47 on September 16, 2006, at 2:09:31
Actually, now I disrespect him most of the time, when I think about my ex-T I find it difficult to feel anything positive about him at all. He hurt me. He did it willfully. Will-fully.
With will.
It was his will to hurt me.
He knew he was hurting me.
He knew I was a person in great pain.
He did Nothing to mitigate that.
He did Everything to enhance my pain.
There are people in this world who will do that to you.
This is what you have to understand.
There are people who care only about their immediate environment, their needs and wishes come before anyone else's, and they're willing to be helpful only so long as it doesn't inconvenience them in any way. He was one of those. He also is an opportunist, and I remember now, how he would be easily swayed .. it was in his voice, in his manner .. he wouldn't have been difficult to convince into much of anything. He was weak.
I was stronger than him .. and I knew it and I used it and I punched at him with it. He made me soooo angry.
I'm so confused.
So hurt and so confused and there isn't anything to do but resolve this in my own head .. forget it. Forget him. Forget it. Forget him forgetforgetforgetforget.
Remember.
Remember for someone else's sake.
poster:Susan47
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