Posted by susan47 on August 5, 2006, at 11:52:21
In reply to Re: » susan47, posted by Estella on August 5, 2006, at 10:41:11
> I get voices in my head. One theory of voices is they are thoughts experienced as alien. As other. As not me. Another theory is that there is... Noise in the channel. Noise that is interpreted as voices. I don't know what I think. I don't think it matters.
The screaming, that could be something meds could take care of, I don't know, do you know? The physical reaction sounds really distressing. That is unnecessary pain. Maybe it's psychic. Maybe it's physical. It feels like both. One after the other, now bound together, needing to be released. Something needs to be released, Estella.
The journal, it took this many years to trust that I could have a journal that I had something to say that I had something of value I might leave behind. So that is why the journal. Because I needed it, it got too much to bear, carrying the burden of myself, alone. There was no one to talk to anymore, you cannot burden friends with this, and quite frankly, friends feel like a burden when things are like this. When things are like this, there are no friends. There is only books, and brain, movies, and.. people. Why the people? Do you ever ask yourself Why Am I A People?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? Like, why the hell couldn't I have been a f*cking .. tree?
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