Posted by alexandra_k on June 2, 2005, at 5:02:37
In reply to Re: I just want to cry, posted by alexandra_k on June 2, 2005, at 3:25:13
And theres nothing I can do.
I think about it a lot
A great deal
My 'options'
What I could do...- I could try ringing the lady who made the funding decision. Tell her that I haven't recieved formal notification of the funding decision. I suppose I could go off at her, but that wouldn't help... I suppose I could say... Being very careful here... But I could ask whether she realises that if the funding decision is 'no' then I will fight that and there will be an inquirey into her decision. And that the lawyer thought I had a good case and so that would look bad for her. But I don't think that is a good way of going about it. She will probably take it as a threat. By default. So there it is.
- I could send p-doc an email. Go off at him. But that won't help. Ask him where I'm at on the wait list. He said he had put in a referral for me to see another p-doc. But he probably just said that, like he does. Trying to prevent a scene incase I decide to start writhing on the floor and saying I'm pregnant... Or something... Something... Anything to keep the peace so that I will go away and not make a scene.. Even if he did put me on the wait list nobody will take me on most likely. I have probably been taken off already because nobody wants to work with me. Nobody wants to see me. And they can 'justify' that by saying that they aren't willing to see someone with that dx because there isn't anything they can do.
- I could email the t that was recomended. Tell her the funding didn't come through. What good would that do??? Well... I suppose there could be a chance that she would agree to see me for free. But I won't do that. I won't do that. It isn't fair to do that. What would I be trying to do? Make her feel guilty and take me on out of pity. Nope. Thats no good.there isn't anything to be done.
and i just keep going round and round and round this sh*t night after night.
One week
One week
and all that f*cking marking
then i do believe im allowed to have a breakdown...
:-(
maybe i need to take the pills
i don't feel so good
poster:alexandra_k
thread:503517
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