Posted by alexandra_k on September 4, 2014, at 20:54:08
In reply to Re: med curriculum, posted by alexandra_k on September 4, 2014, at 16:01:43
feeling... supported.
like i have a bunch of people on my side.
keyworker person who i'm getting on well with, actually. instead of meeting in her office as we usually do (gets me all in psychotherapy mode, head down, ranting about stuff, upset) we went to a cafe. i used to do that with my old keyworker... from years ago... anyway... it is heaps better for me. i still do use it to bounce ideas off etc... but it stops me from sort of ruminating unhelpfully...
clinic has turned out to be great, actually. have had 2 sort of crisis things, really... with the bugs... and then with the meltdown. and on both of those occasions ALL of the staff were really wonderful. receptionists, nurses, and they did get me in to see the doc when i did need to.
doc has turned out to be pretty great, too. she had a follow up with me, when she needn't have, actually.
and so i feel like all that is okay. tis okay.
and the guy i was dealing with before with the disability support stuff... he is someone who i feel like i can chat to. if i need to. i told him about court... when that happened... because i didn't have anyone to talk to about it (early in the process)... and so i think i could go talk to him if i needed to.
and now the learning people seem to be terrific, too. the one who i don't feel i clicked with as well turned out to have struck an absolute goldmine with passing on all that curriculum info. i'm betting... she could do what i could not with knowing how to get hold of the relevant people and getting information out of them. yay her. and the next meeting in person... is actually with the other one - whom i felt i clicked better with in person.
and so... all this... is helping me relax, rather. i feel... supported.
i'm remembering... there certainly were times in aussie (and so on) when i knew full well i was struggling and i needed help. and i did everything in my power, i mean absolutely every single freaking thing that i knew how to do to get a little help... and i simply could not get the help i needed.
anyway... i'm starting to feel like things are different now. things are starting to click into place for me.
i think partly it just is about it taking a year for me to settle into a place. get to know people... they get to know me... then i finally start making the sorts of relationships i need (professional or otherwise). and so we are getting close to my being here for one year... and things really are feeling like they are settling in. which is wonderful, really. because here... is a good place for me. not like these other places where i spend a year to settle in to a place that is wrong wrong wrong and then getting the hell out becomes an issue...
anyway... things are feeling pretty good for me. if only i can keep my GPA up. sigh. doing some grading now... that helps... it is nice to feel competent sometimes.
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