Posted by alexandra_k on September 4, 2014, at 16:01:43
In reply to Re: med curriculum, posted by alexandra_k on September 3, 2014, at 18:00:03
of course i'd be lying if i said it didn't scare me. i did have a... heavy night. a bit restless. background... stresses...
(is this really something that i want to do?)
on the one hand it seemed possible in a way i didn't think it was before. little bits... like being able to opt out of being a model without penalty. stuff like that. and then bits that made it seem a lot more interesting than i thought it would be. like figuring out what the person died of and following a mother through to after delivery and following the infant for a while to learn about development. and i get to thinking that i REALLY want to do it.
but then... over the years... it DOES get scary. especially for people (like me) without a home base that is... homely... for them. the thought of being shipped about for placements... of losing my safe space... that is scary to me. and i really do have no idea whether my disability will get renewed or not...
and then the hours... reading between the lines... the exhaustion. the... eventual... trying to opt out of everything that one can / that one doesn't absolutely have to do because one is simply exhausted. holding instruments in a long operation is probably some blessed relief from patients etc... i... i don't know why they all seem to want to hide from patients... probably because... it is exhausting. having to present calm and reassurance. and people wanting the whole happy puppy noises thing always... probably it is that. or maybe nurses need you to do this and that and the next thing... and it all involves bothering people who are cranky about being bothered (since you can't sign off on anything yourself).
and i feel exhausted just reading it. which is probably why they don't make this information more widely available.
so...
anyway...
i'm not counting my chickens, i don't think... i do understand that i probably won't get a place... that... well... i simply don't know how i'll do next year. i notice... the website actually says you can apply from a B+ average... of course all the internet people talk about A- averages and higher... but probably nobody wants to stand up and say 'oh, i just squeaked in!' just have to do well enough to get an interview (2x as many as number of places available). that sets the grade cut off. so... depends on who applies, i guess. needing to sit the UMAT during mid semester break (at over $200) is probably sufficient deterrant for the... whimsical...
anyway...
anyway...
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