Posted by Jay_BrAvEsT_FaCe on January 8, 2008, at 18:11:30
In reply to Re: I REALLY need your help...almost suicidal (**t » Jay_BrAvEsT_FaCe, posted by TexasChic on January 7, 2008, at 21:25:06
> Dude, I may be writing the same exact post in a couple of months when I turn 38! At least you're out there trying, I'm not even doing that. Its so easy to become apathetic about it all. But other times I realize how much I want a significant other, and know I should be at least trying.
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> I've been working on trying not to compare myself with others. (EVERY friend I've ever had now has kids. I'm the ONLY childless one)! But we're all unique, otherwise we'd be like the Borg or something and life would suck even worse (see how I let that nerd factor slip in there?). There are so-o-o many people on this planet! I mean, its really beyond our comprehension. It just can't be possible that there aren't a few out there that we're compatible with.
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> It reminds me of how I felt when I was having problems with the people at my last job. I got all this support here, and I realized that just because it SEEMS like the whole world is against me, its really only a minute portion of mankind. I just happened to be surrounded by them at the time.
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> Well, I hope this made sense, I'm really tired and sort of lost my stamina to write anymore even though I'd like to (another one of those insanely busy times at work). Just try to keep in mind that just because you meet all these idiot people, they are probably the minority compared to the rest of the world, you just happen to be surrounded by them at the moment!
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> -THi TC:
Well, I hope you are definitely not writing this down the road! There is that line from a song...."Kick at the darkness 'till it bleeds daylight". I've been furiously thrashing, and nadda!!...lol. I am having some med problems too, that doesn't help. I HOPE dear sweet GOD that when I get my Abilify next week, it will work me out of this bedbound, anxious-ridden depression. As I write this, many of the same feelings are still with me. I contained maybe a tiny much, much less then a 1/4 of it all. I feel anaesthetised. At the same time every breath is a major undertaking. Take care of yourself Hun...
Jay
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