Posted by James K on January 5, 2006, at 1:46:02
In reply to Re: Too afraid to get help » LegWarmers, posted by Deneb on January 4, 2006, at 11:39:48
> If I'm ever going to OD again, I'd better do it AFTER my semester is over, perhaps in April or the beginning of May. Must remember to not breakdown before my semester is over.
> Deneb
Quotes from James' past -
"don't worry I won't do anything while my wife is out of town. That would be too hard on her."
So a couple of weeks later .32 blood alcohol, ambien, vicodin, uncounted stitches, and a near potassium coma. That was much easier on her. I wasn't even around to clean the blood.
"they won't take me seriously unless I show them I really need help."
now I have the words f**k the world carved into my chest with a razor blade. and safety pin holes all over my body. And hammer bruises all over my body. they knew I was serious they kept me in PICU involuntarily. I have a court record of an involuntary commitment.
I'm sharing my examples not because I think you'll end up in the same boats, but because it doesn't have to be necessary to end up in any boats. If I had taken care of business along the way, chances are I wouldn't have randomly woken up on two days about a year apart and begun dismantling myself.
My meds have kicked in, good night
keep safe,
James
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