Posted by TexasChic on November 14, 2005, at 19:55:11
In reply to Re: Preparing To Die » TexasChic, posted by corafree on November 13, 2005, at 20:24:37
> The thing is ... a combo of meds is what I don't want anymore.
I can definitely understand that. My doc put me on a new med for 6 months last year and I just about lost my mind. So now I'm back on good old Prozac, and that's where I plan to stay (I don't even know why I got off it in the first place). If it hadn't worked for me, I don't know where I'd be now. I'm very grateful I found one that works for me, because I know not everybody does.
> I rec'd an injection of bioidentical hormone a few months back. I called my OB-GYN (this happens to men too by the way) in amazement. I said 'This stuff is Great! I had such a feeling of well being'.Yeah, hormones seem to have a big effect on your emotional well being. I don't think they fully understand the reasons yet. I've had alot of female problems too. I went on Lupron for 6 months, which puts you in a medically induced menopause. And I have to tell you, I have 'never' had anything effect me in such a way! It made me very angry! Or at least, it kept me from being able to bottle it up like I usually do. I have a very difficult time expressing anger, and usually just become very passive. So when I started thinking about how I wanted to go fight my idiot supervisor in the parking lot, I was like, whoa! That's new! I feel sorry for whoever I'm around when the real thing happens.
>I know NOW that I had what is now called DPMS. BUT, I was given psych drugs. Now today my body seems not to know what to do w/o psych drugs!Yeah, that's pretty messed up. One of these days they will have done a million tests and be able to tell what hormones and seratonin 'really' do. They just don't know all that much yet. It's pretty much like, "Here, try this and we'll see what happens."
> I chose what I thought was the most benign one - Prozac. I'd taken it in the past, hadn't had any bad side effects. Except now they're saying Prozac in teens may cause them to feel suicidal.I believe that is something that strictly applies to teens and adolescents. Maybe something to do with hormones????
> My only other option was Eff-XR, and I just feel it is a dirtier(sp?) drug .Is that Effexor? All I know about that is the withdrawels are bad when you decide to stop them. My sister takes them and if she misses one she feels all dizzy and sick.
> I haven't been sleeping and asked for a regular sleeping pill. They (the State) won't give me one. THEY don't do that. I have to take another anti-depressant!That's strange. I wonder why they won't give you Ambien. Maybe because its not supposed to be used long term. But if you're asking your doctor for a sleeping pill, it looks like it would be because you 'are' having a long term problem with it. Duh!
> Anyway, I take Excedrin-PMOne thing a friend told me once who was a nurse, is that the ingredient they put in over the counter sleep aids like Tylenol pm and Excedrin pm is Benedryl. If you compare the ingredients you'll see its the same. I get store brand Benedryl for like, two bucks a box. It works pretty well for me (but my insomnia isn't 'that' bad these days).
> worked a little too long to get food stamps .. am just $40 over poverty level.
That sucks so bad. My sister is in the same boat. She makes too much to get food stamps, yet she can barely keep afloat. I told her to go to the food bank. But she hasn't done it yet.
> I don't believe I am seriously mentally ill. I don't think I ever have.
I think the term 'mentally ill' has a 'very' wide meaning, and is not an accurate description for most people.
> Besides cervical disc extrusions; I have a toxic megacolon which wreaks havoc w/ me daily and only wish I could have surgery for that. And, I also a cystocele, rectocele and prolapse.
Oh my God, I don't even know what all that stuff is! But I do know what its like to have chronic pain (the female stuff, and TMJ problems) and how crappy doctors are about giving you meds. I had one accuse me of being a drug seeker, and I was pratically suicidal from the pain. I was like, do you really think I would have gone through Lupron Hell for 6 months if I wasn't in pain?!
> My daughter is allergic to CATS .. can't even visit a house where there is one.
Aw-w-w. I'm sorry. I'm alergic too but Claritin takes care of mine. I also think as I've gotten older I have become less alergic though.
I didn't realize you had kids when I said get a cat. You probably don't need one then. I'm single and alone and my cat is sometimes the only living thing I associate with outside of work. He definitely makes a difference in my life.> I hate to give up, but too much emotional pain, too much physical pain, too many damn doctors appts. And, too much to do all by myself .. I need someone else here with me, physically, to care.
I don't know how many times I've said, "I just need someone to take care of me! Its just too hard!" Not very independent women of me I know, but sometimes it just gets to be so overwhelming.
Well, hang in there. You never know what's around the corner. I saw on the news that they have a possible cure for cancer. You just never know what will pop up next.
-T
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