Posted by allisonross on November 13, 2005, at 12:35:26
In reply to Preparing To Die, posted by corafree on November 13, 2005, at 11:50:22
> Dearest Cora; I am so sad for you, as I read what you have written. You are in so much pain, I know.
I've been marking everything as I've unpacked it here @ this new condo I hate. I lost my Dad, my home in Iowa, my home in Tempe, and now another love in my life. I've had eescapy and trauma. I've seen evil and I've seen good. I'm too tired .. not bathing .. not brushing teeth .. not caring .. just don't want anyone around me as I have no more to give.
Can you (or are you) go to therapy?
I've prayed so much for so long. I am so much more than anyone can even see anymore, and I want to feel that way about myself as I leave this life. I do not dislike myself and I've asked for forgiveness for my mistakes.
Then you are forgiven (that's what Jesus said).
He forgave you, now can you find a way to forgive yourself?I'm sooo tiiirrreeeddddd. I asked for help from my family, but they are all too busy.
That is sad.
So that of course makes the burden seem cumbersome upon them and causes me to feel guilty. Well damn it, I've given them all so much. I've put myself aside for more people than I can count. God help me I'm Tired! Leave me alone now .. all of you (not you guys) .. I'm just too damn sick and tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cf
Sounds as if you are a believer. Perhaps my website will resonate with you. www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com
Faith-based poems of anguish, healing and comfort.
Please write to me, if you wish. e-mail: wacalice@aol.com
I wish I could hug you and talk to you, and take away some of your pain. Feeling hopeless, is just about the worst one can feel, and I sense that from what you have written.Please don't destroy yourself. Things seem totally black right now. I understand.
It seems that nothing can ever be okay or right again/right now? God loves you and I do.
You've had major losses and trauma. Can you be gentle with yourself right now, and just rest?
Call a mental health hotline, hospital, etc. to get some help?
You are a precious person, who is trying to stay out of pain.
I have read that "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem"
I know it doesn't seem temporary to you. You are in so much pain and just want to give up. I hope you won't.
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